Oiésis is a fancy way of saying fooling yourself. Today's meditation is about what we tell ourselves. And, more importantly for me, how we warp our brain into forcing observations which conform our assumptions.
Self-deception is an awful disease and eyesight is a lying sense.
This is true about me in a way that is the opposite for most. I see the worst about myself and my future. When that bad thing invariably happens, I convince myself I should not have done whatever it was I did. I know that this mistake, misunderstanding or catastrophe is my fault.
It sounds stupid, but think of it this way. If it is my fault then I don't blame others and can avoid a conflict. Sure it eats at part of me, but not the part I need to protect.